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My First Haircut Post Chemo

My First Haircut Post Chemo
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It is no secret that last week I had my first haircut post chemo. I immediately shared my haircut in my Instagram Story. What most of you don't know was how much of a big deal this haircut was to me.

Aside from last week, it's been almost two years since I got my haircut. I shared this story before as well, and my last haircut was when I decided to chop my long locks to donate to cancer patients. A few short months later, I was diagnosed with cancer. So having a haircut was almost a symbol of a poignant point of time in my life.

The funny thing was that when I started losing my hair from chemo, I didn't mind at all. In fact, I cared more that I lost my lashes haha. I didn't care as much because I was just too annoyed of constant chunks of hair falling out and leaving a trail everywhere that after a few days I asked my husband to shave it off. I was also too focused on the finish line, beating cancer, for it to sink in that I lost all my hair. Admittedly, I was embarrassed about being bald at first, but after a week or so I got used to it.

My First Haircut Post Chemo

It wasn't until my hair started growing back after finishing my last round of chemo that it sunk in I lost my hair. It was growing in odd patches and different lengths, and I became impatient with the growth. I was also ambitious with the growth. I really wanted my hair to be chin length after 3 months of chemo. I wanted my hair to be ready for my brother-in-law's wedding. It tore me apart knowing I only had half an inch of hair growth.

As each day, each week, and each month progressed I became self-conscious about how I looked with my hair. It was growing in different lengths and it was hard to maintain. I would constantly be getting bedheads and that would mean I would always have to shower each day to try to tame it. And I'll be honest, I don't always want to shower each day. But to look 'normal', showering was the only option. Thank goodness for headbands to also tame the look of my hair! It was my saving grace.

Even though the length was odd, I refused to get it trimmed to even it out and remove the dead ends. To me, it meant all that hard work and progression would set me back. I grew to be really attached to my hair. I really wanted my long locks to come back. Getting a haircut would mean it would take even longer to get to my desired length.

Some of you highly recommended I get a haircut (and thank you so much for that!!) and that it would be healthy in growing my hair. It is not that I didn't want to take your advice, I was just really scared to. In this recovery process, I am working hard on working on myself and trying to get myself back and I was afraid that haircut would take it all away.

My First Haircut Post Chemo

More recently, my hair started to bother me. I couldn't style it the way I wanted to and the uneven lengths became more apparent. That is when one day I decided I should go for it. In my mind I kept thinking, I know I'm afraid of losing my confidence when I get my haircut but what if I gain more confidence too. I kept weighing the two opposite thoughts. And then, I just booked it. And you know what, I am so grateful I did! Lavender Park was so patient with me and took the time to listen to my concerns. They knew without me admitting to it, that I was afraid a haircut would be a setback.

So you know what, they decided to thin it out (haha my hair is too thick!) and tried to blend in the different lengths. And you know what?! I left feeling so good about myself! Lavender Park did an amazing job. In case you were wondering, they're my go-to hair salon and it was the last place I had my haircut before diagnosis. It was as if I had a boost of confidence injected.

I guess to sum it up, getting this haircut was one of my hardest decisions and I am glad I went through with it. It taught me two things:

My First Haircut Post Chemo

  1.  Do something when you are ready. Even though in the end it resulted in me feeling better about myself than when I did walking into the salon, I honestly didn't think I would have had a great reaction to my cut if I wasn't ready to walk in. It is all about listening to your body and doing what feels right.
  2.  Sometimes you have to move back to move forward. I was afraid all that progress in my hair growth would be set back if I got my hair cut. But that's not the truth. If anything, I felt I just reached a milestone in my recovery.
Sorry for the long post. It has been awhile since I've been personal and since this haircut was a big deal to me, I definitely wanted to share it with you all!

I wish you all a wonderful Memorial Day weekend!

xo RD

52 comments:

  1. Aw you look lovely!! The haircut looks beautiful!!!

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  2. Hi Rach, thank you for sharing. I admire your strength. You are beautiful inside out and I am happy you are doing well. And your new haircut really suits you. As you said, sometimes we have to move back to go forward.
    Hugs
    Miri

    http://currentlywearing.com

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    1. Thank you Miri so much for your kind words! I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

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  3. This hairdo looks great on you! You took great decision and I'm happy for you!

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    1. Thank you Violette! I'm happy about it too!

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  4. I admire your courage and perseverance. I know quite a number of people who are unable to handle chemo and gave up midway through. Your hair looks great and i hope you feel better and better!
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    1. Thank you so much Ann-Marie! Please tell those who are going through chemo to not give up and there is a finish line!

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  5. Such a brave girl<3 You look beautiful as ever!

    Enclothed Cognition

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  6. Rachel, thank you so much for sharing! My mom said the same thing about her lashes. She was more bummed about those than her hair. But, I have to say your hair looks gorgeous and very stylish. Thanks for sharing your journey :)

    Love, Lindsey
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    1. Aw tell your mom she is a warrior! That is so funny she thought the same thing about lashes! Thank you Lindsey!

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  7. Thanks for sharing this beautiful post. It was eye opening getting to read your story about how why a haircut took a lot of thought for you and it made me realize how I take my hair for granted. I think it looks great and you look so good, girl! You're so strong and brave and I admire you!

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    1. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this! I probably took my hair for granted too. Sometimes we forget how something is worth until we lose it. I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

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  8. A magical woman you are with such a strength of character...I only hope to be half as graceful as you if I am ever in the same position! What a warrior!

    XOXO
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    1. Thank you so much Kelly and for the kindest words!

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  9. Wow thank you for trusting us with something so personal. You are truly a warrior! A lot of us take our hair for granted, so it's nice to have read this and put things in perspective. Hope you have a wonderful memorial day weekend with your new hair style!

    Simply Lovebirds

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    1. I took my for granted before. I was always like "Oh it is just hair". I had no idea that it would affect me so much. Thanks Kim!

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  10. I think I commented on your story already to tell you that I love the new haircut! I also really appreciate your rawness and honesty in this post. I completely understand why you were hesitant to get it cut, but it really does look great. Also, I LOVE how amazing your salon is. That makes a huge difference!

    Jackie of Something About That

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    1. Yes you did and than you so much Jackie! Yes, the salon was sooo amazing!!

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  11. I like the whole styling and photos! Cheers to the photographer who did a great job capturing your style!
    <3

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  12. I absolutely love it! I can't imagine what a big step this was for you but it turned out BEAUTIFUL!

    Heidi || Wishes & Reality

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    1. Thank you so much Heidi! Without a doubt it was a scary a step!

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  13. What an inspirational story. Stay strong and you look as beautiful as can be!

    Jessica | notjessfashion.com

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    1. Thank you so much for your support Jessica!

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  14. Love your smile dear its so cute I won't see anything else

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  15. Such a great post!Love your haircut:-)

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  16. Your hair looks SO GREAT. Have a great Memorial Day Weekend :)

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    1. Thank yo use much Colleen! Hope you have a great one too!

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  17. You look beautiful, Rach! I admire your strenght!
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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words!

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  18. You're looking good and radiant! Wishing you better health! :)

    Angelie // Living Life, One Coffee at a Time

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  19. you have a nice hair cut <3
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  20. You continue to be so brave, lady- I totally understand how your hair becomes such a big deal. (Much of my beauty identity is wrapped up in my hair, so I can only imagine how much of an effect it would have on me.) You are, as usual, handling everything like a champ and being so honest in the process. And the new cut looks great! Super fresh!

    -Ashley
    Le Stylo Rouge

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    1. Aw thank you Ashley! This means so much!

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  21. Your hairstyle looks great! I can somewhat relate to how you felt regarding your hair as I have had alopecia for the past 10 years. At some point, I put off a visit to the hairdresser for ever. Recently it has got better (smaller patches, easier to hide) but it's not fully gone yet. But anyway, enjoy your new look. You can be proud of it.

    ANOUK

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    1. Omg I had no idea! So sorry you had to go through that! Well I think you look amazing and I admire your strength!

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  22. This brought tears to my eyes and I am SO SO happy for you friend!!! Congrats on the new 'do...it looks amazing being shown off by an equally amazing strong and resilient woman. Happy weekend love!

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    1. Thank you so so so much for your sweet words Laura! I hope you're having a wonderful weekend!

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  23. You look stunning with short hair! Good health for you!
    xo Yvonne
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  24. So inspiring to read your story aaaand you look flippin' fantastic!

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  25. Wow you look beautiful! What an inspiring post too, thank you :) xx

    www.fashionjazz.co.za

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  26. You are so beautiful! Your hair growth is a sign that you kicked cancer's a** so I'm sure that deciding to get a cut was so emotional. Thank you for being strong enough to share this.

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  27. This hair cut looks fab on you lady. Wishing you the best health. Keep smiling!
    Nistha
    https://www.fashionistha.com/short-floral-dress/

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  28. te sienta genial ese corte de pelo

    @andreeacarro www.andreeacarro.com

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  29. Such terrible irony in the story of how you donated your hair to those who have lost theirs, only to discover you would be one of those in need of a wig in the months to come. Your story is so beautiful and I applaud you for always being forward with us in this hard time of your life. Your hair looks so sweet and suits you and the new "you," a survivor, so well!

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