|Floral Off the Shoulder Dress: Boohoo ($40)
Lace-Up Sandals: Nordstrom Rack (old), similar here ($69.95)
Ark Bag: Cult Gaia ($128)
Sunglasses: c/o Zenni Optical
Floral Off The Shoulder Dress
I initially thought about only talking about this floral off the shoulder dress in this post. Like how much I love the watercolor style and the florals on this dress. I am a sucker for anything floral after all and off the shoulder! It just creates a feminine, but still classy look. And how I wanted to share that this dress is also great to wear to a wedding (if wedding season is still going strong for you!). There is so much I can say about a dress. And that’s when it got me thinking about the impact fashion blogging has had on me.
I started a fashion blog because I loved fashion and shopping. I also enjoyed putting together outfits (obviously). There were times that I just wanted to get out of the house so I had an excuse to put an outfit together. But honestly, I was so scared of the idea of fashion blogging. I was nervous about exposing myself to the world wide web even though probably only a handful of people were reading my blog when I first started out. I’m not a very open person and I actually limit what I share with most people. I also can’t stand looking at photos of myself. It’s not that I despised my looks, but I felt weird looking at my face. But nevertheless, I started this fashion blog and as it grew and grew, what it has done for me was totally unexpected.
What Blogging Has Done For Me
I learned to appreciate my uniqueness more. I definitely did not grow up in what most people would say is ‘normal’. When my parents decided to move to the suburbs later in life, we stood out like a sore thumb. What I thought was the norm, others didn’t see it or get it. I always did things my way but as I got older, I got slightly ashamed of what made me, me. As I continued to blog, I started to come out of my shell. I dressed the way I wanted to, I wasn’t as shy (although I still am, but working on it!), and I learned to love myself even more. Even friendships were created and it was so cool to find friends that accepted me for who I am.
Then I was hit with the ‘C’ word. I knew going through chemo would change things, but I also knew I wanted to continue to do the things I love and one of them is to keep this fashion blog going. During chemo, it was hard to get myself to get out because I felt so sick or just not up for it. There were instances when I would feel ‘totally blah’ (haha that is the best way I can describe it), and when I had to get out of the house, I noticed that I was able to feel better. This is where I think fashion blogging somewhat saved me. It was hard to motivate me to get out of the house even though I knew getting some fresh air would help me. But what motivated me was that I needed content to post. So I would get ready: put on my makeup, create outfits, and went out and took photos. Each time I prepared for a photoshoot, I noticed I felt better. My nausea would slightly go away and I was able to ignore the body aches.
Fashion blogging gave me a reason to take care of myself and made me feel like me. When I lost my hair, eyebrows, eyelashes, and had slightly discolored skin, I sometimes couldn’t recognize myself and it would make me sad. I had learned to love what was me and it felt like it was taken away from me. However, I was motivated to keep blogging and creating outfits and it pushed me to find different makeup brands and get creative to feel beautiful, to feel and look like me. I’m so glad I made the effort because something about recognizing your face in the mirror was a relief. This reassured me that not all of ‘Rach’ was gone and that it was possible to bring ‘me’ back. It still may be a bit of work, but this gal didn’t go away!
So what started out as a way to just share my favorite fashion trends and outfits, became a way to help me heal.